FOOD.

These are my favourite foods. :)

The person who made this would have to be a magical personal chef, since he would have to alter my stomach to be unlimited for one night only. Otherwise I wouldn’t be able to eat all the food I want. I usually eat an appetizer and then end up stuck halfway through the main course.

Drinks

  • strawberry daquiris
  • pitcher of sangria with lots of fruit
  • mango punch
  • water

Appetizers

  • freshly bakes bread
  • goat cheese, cranberry and walnut spinach salad with raspberry vinaigrette
  • bruschetta
  • guacamole
  • five layer dip with baked pita wedges
  • biscuits and gravy
  • sweet potato fries
  • garlic bread

Mains

  • pad thai
  • portobello mushroom burgers with fresh cut fries and onion rings
  • cream sauce pasta with asparagus
  • ‘chicken’ ala king
  • avocado quesdillas
  • cubano sandwich

Desserts

  • lemon meringue pie
  • cherry cheesecake
  • chocolate moousse
  • cupcakes
  • chocolate chip cookies
  • smarties/skittles
  • chocolate
  • popcorn

Snacks

  • ruffles with Helluva Good dip
  • salsa and multigrain tostitos
  • hummus and pita

Sweet Darlin’

“It’s a little bit funny, this feeling inside.”

-Elton John

Well Elton you said it. I am experiencing quite a strange feeling. It’s not quite fear, not quite excitement. I’m not outwardly anxious, happy or afraid. Internally I am experiencing mild anxiety or stress, but I’m not overcome with it. Maybe that’s because if I thought about it too much I would lose it completely. There are some indications, hints at my current insanity. For example, my absent mindedness. In the past week I have left the stove on all morning, left the oven on all night, ordered a homeburger instead of a natureburger, lost approximately seven things and counting, found one of them, and then lost the list of things I’d lost. Fortunately I found that.

People say this is from the underlying stress of experiencing a grand transition.

I certainly hope so.

Otherwise, I appear to the untrained eye to be okay. I was speaking with my dad yesterday and realized that the thing I’m having the most trouble with is the fact that I don’t really know very much about where I’m going and therefore do not have much control over my situation. And that’s hard for me. Because while I don’t need to control other people’s behaviour, it’s difficult for me to experience a change over which I hold no control. It was bothering me a lot that this situation was completely unknown to me: don’t know my room, where my classes are, don’t have the meal plan figured out, yadda yadda yadda. It’s not so much anxiety over making friends, etc, it’s knowing that I have no control over who I’ll meet. I have no idea what is going to happen, and that is the scariest part by far.

Also on my mind is this idea of shifting relationships. In a few short days I am going to be far away from my friends and family, in a different city, province and headspace. My greatest fear of all is that I’ll return a stranger to my family and lose contact with my friends.

Not to mention school itself! I have spent so much time worrying about everything else that I haven’t given much thought to the workload itself, the hours spent studying, the reading, the labs, the stress. I just have to remember to keep my head down and work hard I guess.

I have been getting so many great words of advice from the wise people around me: parents, friends, sisters, colleagues. I am leaving so soon that I am at the point of inevitability. It is happening in three days and there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it.

Which is fairly terrifying in its own right.