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Lately: August 2015

Lately August >> Life In Limbo

Enjoying the peace & quiet of my mom’s house in the forest and lots of bonfires.

Listening to a lot of Happier, Magic Lessons, and The Lively Show.

Waiting (impatiently) for Serial season 2 and for visas to get approved.

Watching episodes of Luther.

Reading Tana French, Elin Hilderbrand, and this beautiful stack of great books.

Wanting to read Big Magic and Rising Strong.

Eating a lot of these tacos, peaches, home-grown yellow cherry tomatoes and these veggie hot dogs (the apple sage kind).

Doing my flossing and meditation every day.

Working on product photos for the Red Tent Sisters, new episodes of the podcast, and my posture, always.

Loving on the library, going for walks, being around my family, reading in an armchair, and the power of Skype.

Thrilled to be seeing my friends again, in Toronto and more recently in New York! Yay!

Trying to move more, be less reactive, and be more intentional about my relationships.

Embracing uncertainty + the next stage of my life’s adventure. (This is very hard).

Practicing gratitude every day.

23 Moments

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

It’s my 24th birthday today, and I wanted to keep up my tradition of looking back over the past year and taking stock of some of the lovely experiences I was lucky enough to have. I’ve done this when I turned twenty-two and twenty-three as well, and it’s always such a wonderful reminder of what’s important to me. Here are my 23 favourite moments from this past year of being 23, in no particular order.

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Seeing my mom at the tiny, deserted arrivals area of the Busan airport.

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

The first time we saw White Beach, bright and early our first morning before many of the tourists were out, and just laughed our way hysterically into the water.

That magical afternoon Dylan and I trekked out to the magical fountain of dreams even though we were so tired and it was so far away. We jumped on an old trampoline at this tiny dilapidated arcade until we couldn’t breathe from laughing and our sides were killing us, then watched the sunset sitting on some rocks and talked, did handstands on the beach and saw the hilarious water and lights show set to classical music.

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

The whole day of the Busan Fireworks Festival.

The Sunday afternoon after my eye surgery, realizing that I could see all the way to the beautiful bridge and all the detail of the gorgeous glittery water without wearing glasses or contacts.

Walking through the old wood forest in Japan, all alone, just before sunset during magic hour, just thinking “thank you thank you thank you thank you”.

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

That late summer picnic at Igidae when we rushed out after work and caught the train, brought our own beer and chips and kimbap and chocolate bars and ate on the rocks with the most perfect view of the city in front of us as the sun went down.

The happy hour we spent at Spider House bar on Boracay. Everything was perfect: the drinks, the sunset, the company, the food, the bamboo ladder that led straight from the restaurant into the water, the two swims we had, the vibe.

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

Running my first 10K race across the Gwangan bridge in Busan. The views were incredible: on one side you could see the beach and the mountains, and on the other side just sparkling ocean.

Dancing onstage at the M.I.A. show at Ultra Seoul.

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

That whole day we went surfing. Perfect weather, belly laughs, wet tangly hair, playing jenga in the streets, watching a drum parade, and dancing with ajummas outside of Thursday Party.

Each night at dusk in Kyoto by the river, sitting by the bridge with new friends, running up to the Lawson corner store for more cheap Japanese beer, listening to nearby acoustic guitar and ten different languages, watching the water and looking at the lights.

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

The baseball games on weekend afternoons where we bought cheap beers and laughed at all the chants and tied orange plastic bags to our heads in bows and balls.

Watching the sun set over Haeundae beach from Vesta spa during lunar new year weekend with two great friends, feeling totally blissed out.

Walking the beach during magic hour and then going on the Viking ride at the tiny carnival with my mom. She thought I was crazy for making her go on it but the views from up there were amazing and it just felt like pure joy. That whole day did, really. The whole week did.

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

Sitting on the rocks on the far side of the beach at dusk, reading a book I was sent in the mail by someone I care about.

Being driven around on the back of the mini truck inside the Tsujiki fish market in Tokyo by a kind man with lots of character, who dropped us off at his favourite sushi restaurant for lunch.

Hiking along the coast to Oryukdo just in time to see the sunset.

23 Favourite Moments >> Life In Limbo

Anytime the owner of our favourite Mexican restaurant played the violin, but especially the time when my mom was here to experience it

That sneaky shot at Fuzzy Navel.

Watching the sun rise with Dylan in the lifeguard chair on Haeundae beach on his last morning in Busan. We were exhausted and it was hot and we were sweaty, but I was also really and truly grateful.

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That day Katie and I spent derping around Gyeongju on bicycles and the night that followed of sitting on the roof at happy hour. I was so close to leaving Busan that I felt nostalgic already.

Finishing up my year in Korea, sending a box home, packing my bag and getting on a plane bound for Bangkok.

Honorable mentions:

  • All the times I watched the sun set (examples: 1, 2, 3)
  • Every time I saw the Diamond Bridge and remembered where I was lucky enough to live (examples: 1, 2, 3)
  • All the times I was on a roof at dusk

I have had an absolutely incredible year of being alive. I feel both proud and totally humbled that I have created such a life for myself, thrilled but also a bit disbelieving. When I was 18, I would have told you I was too anxious to travel or live away from home, but I’m so happy that I’ve started to learn how to do scary things before I’m ready. I also feel deeply grateful for all the amazing people I am lucky enough to know, care about, and be cared for by. If there’s one thing I learned this past year, it’s how valuable my relationships are – how they are the most important thing.

At the risk of getting too sappy (too late), I just feel so lucky and so blessed. Today I spent part of my birthday swimming in the most gorgeous natural pool of the bluest water you’ve ever seen, under a waterfall in the middle of a jungle in Laos. I’m not entirely sure how I got here, but I plan to do as Cheryl Strayed says: “Let whatever mysterious starlight that guided you this far guide you onward into whatever crazy beauty awaits.” If this year is any indication, a lot more crazy beauty awaits. Bring it on, 24.

Writing Inspiration

Writing Again >> Life In LimboI started writing for fun again! I haven’t done any creative writing since probably November of 2013, unless you count the creative nonfiction piece I wrote about my wonderful mother. I think in my mind I had at some point, probably after my second NaNoWriMo, unconsciously associated writing with word counts and deadlines and typing gibberish even though I wasn’t in the mood. Thinking that way was the only way, I sort of shut it down completely.

But it started creeping back in, especially over the past few weeks. I spoke to a friend who wants to move to Spain and write his novel. I found some old snippets and scenes on my computer and didn’t completely hate them. Another friend talks about her daily writing practice and has given her book of essays a publication date in her mind. I read a piece that asked you to remember what it was you loved to do when you were very young.

So on Sunday, eating brunch by myself at my favourite café, I took out a notebook and started writing. It made me feel so good that I found a podcast on writing that I listened to while walking and bought a new notebook for writing scribbles on my way home. Later the podcast sparked a conversation with a friend of mine and she told me about the fan fiction she used to write.

It’s been so fun these last few days to just write, to practice, to live in a little world of my own making. It’s been great to let myself completely off hooks of any kind and just enjoy it without worrying about how much I need to write or what I’ll do with it. It’s been freeing (and laughably obvious) to realize that I don’t have to be a published novelist as my career or do absolutely no writing, but can find a little sweet spot for myself somewhere in between.

In the spirit of the thing, here are some links to awesome writing inspiration I’ve found or re-visited lately:

All Write Already is “a completely unpretentious literary podcast” where they talk about writing and interview authors about things like their writing processes and thoughts about storytelling. I’ve listened to a few episodes now and have found inspiration in every one so far.

I used to follow Sarah Selecky a lot more closely, back when I wrote more, and had subscribed to her daily writing prompts. This week I revisited her site and found this gem of an article about writing longhand (which I’ve been loving) and signed up for her twice-monthly letters.

I haven’t read either of his novels, but on the recommendation of two friends with impeccable literary taste, I read Junot Diaz’s short story A Cheater’s Guide to Love this week and liked it a lot.

I also used to read Fiction Fridays by Rachel on the Elephantine blog. She would post a scene or a poem on her blog each Friday and they were always very inspiring and very good. She’s since stopped because she’s working on her novel but I read through some of the archive this week and enjoyed them as ever. I don’t think I’m ready to do something similar on my blog here, but maybe one day..

Happy Wednesday!

Lately | January

This is a snapshot of what my life was like in January 2015. You can see all my Lately posts here.

Lately January >> Life In Limbo

Watching Gilmore Girls Season 3 + 4,  and the Oscar-nominated movies one by one.

Reading a lot of great fiction by David Mitchell, Rainbow Rowell and John Green.

Making lists on lists of things to do/buy/edit/create before I leave Korea on April 1st.

Getting used to having perfect vision at night and when I wake up in the morning.

Listening to Invisibilia, Dear Sugar Radio and Death Sex & Money.

Planning a backpacking trip through Thailand, Vietnam, Cambodia and India for after I’m finished my contract here!

Booking flights galore to Thailand, to Vietnam, to New Delhi, and finally to home sweet home. I’ve been using Cheapoair mostly.

Creating a lot of great episodes of the podcast to air while I’m away.

Keeping up with my daily goals to meditate, walk 10,000 steps and write in my gratitude journal almost every single day.

Drinking milky earl grey tea in the mornings and red wine at night.

Doing a lot of journalling, processing, and thinking.

Eating homemade vegetable soup, omelets with leeks for breakfast, and peanut tofu sandwiches.

Trying to stay present (always) (and forever).

Grateful for the awesome people I know and love.

Excited (very) for what February has in store.

Wishing you a happy week, not too cold and full of love.

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