Butter Tart Squares

Stress baking.

A term that unfortunately I am all too familiar with.

For some bizarre reason, whenever I feel:

a) Out of it; b) Stressed; c) Like there aren’t enough hours in the day; d) All of the above

I get an urge to escape those awful feelings and bake something, preferably something that doesn’t take up too much time, is delicious, and can be shared with friends should I ever have enough time for a social life. It’s a fairly counter-intuitive process, since baking something usually takes up time and energy, but it happens anyway. Stress baking isn’t logical, y’all!

The past couple days, I’ve been really nervous for my midterm exam (tomorrow) in my Cognition class. There’s a ton of information to learn, including 11 extremely detailed coronal sections of the human brain, and yes, I am expected to learn every single structure. Is it bad to admit that I’ve only memorized 7 so far?

Plus I have NaNo, plus I have exercise class tonight, plus I’m not sure what I’m going to make for dinner. Probably perogies. I was also a bit peeved/irritable because I did a work-out video yesterday, hoping it would pump me with some endorphins and give me a little energy boost. NO SUCH LUCK. Instead I felt even more exhausted and irritable. Boo!

So this morning, when I woke up, I decided to make butter tart squares. That just sounds like all kinds of goodness, doesn’t it? They’re extremely easy, require very few ingredients, and are probably the most delicious thing you’ll eat all week. Let me show you how to make them.

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More VHS Than DVD

Tis the season to be jolly! And boy am I ever jolly. I just got through my personal exam hell: psychology, calculus, physics (OMG.) and I have chemistry in two days. Less now! Like a day?! How exciting! I still have mucho studying to do, but it’s coming along well and since I’m super restless at this point in the week, drained and just excited to be done with exams, I decided to take a break to blog. Relaxing :)

And what to blog about? Well one of the things I am most excited about to do over Christmas break (besides eating, sleeping, reading, decorating the Christmas tree, skating, seeing family & friends, playing with my dog and kittens, baking and did I mention eating?) is watching Christmas movies. Oh my gosh. I adore Christmas movies probably more than any other type of movie out there. And although my list matches up with practically every other “Best Christmas Movies” list there exists, I want to do it myself anyways!

Here you go, try out some of these if you haven’t before. In NO particular order!

How The Grinch Stole Christmas

Awe, little Jenny Humphrey! ‘Nough said. Except I will say this: I thoroughly enjoyed Jim Carrey in this movie, his Grinch was particularly and deliciously grinchy. Also, young Grinch is absolutely adorable and kind of dark. It’s heartwarming and always good for a few laughs.

“Jury duty, jury duty, blackmail, jury duty, muahaha”

How The Grinch Stole Christmas (The Old One)

Just watch the cartoon people singing their silly Who song holding hands, and watch the Grinch’s heart grow three sizes so he is able to have that beautiful moment when the sun rises and he saves Christmas!! Watch those scenes and tell me your heart isn’t happy after. Plus it takes like, what, forty minutes of your time? :)

Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer


Best parts? Herby, the reindeer romance, the island of Lost Toys (and the doll: we cannot determine why she was rejected!! There is nothing wrong with her!), “Don’t you know about Bumbles? Bumbles bounce!”.

White Christmas

So this one is relatively new to the list, I only discovered it last year. But it’s definitely worth checking out. Two sisters who are also performers team up with two friends who have just left the army after WW2 to…well I am not entirely sure what the goal of their mission is, but they end up having to perform for someone important at some ski lodge-type-thing. Obviously the details are unimportant, the gist is that it’s adorable and predictable and has Bing Crosby in it. :) Plus the song ‘Sisters’ is hilarious.

Love Actually

I’ve already seen it twice this holiday season. SO amazing. I adore this movie. A collection of love stories all set during the Christmas season: some beautiful, some heartbreaking, some hilarious. So so so so good. GO see it!

Miracle on 34th Street

Sort of goes without saying, doesn’t it? Isn’t this one in everyone’s holiday arsenal? If not, add it immediately. Susan (the little girl pictured) is a star, she’s so hilarious and witty for her age in this movie. Of course, the Santa Clause is perfect, the ending makes me ecstatically happy every time I watch it and it’s just a wonderful story about the magic of Christmas.

It’s a Wonderful Life

I love James Stewart. And I love heartwarming movies that remind you of the importance of family and the awesomeness of Christmas. This movie fulfills all of those criteria. YES PLEASE.

Okay. And now we have the real special ones, the ones reserved for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.  :)

Christmas Eve: A Christmas Carol

Okay so it’s old, and sort of drags at parts, and constantly scares the shit out of me with the last ghost holy moly. But all that aside, it’s still a classic and me and my mother have been watching it on Christmas Eve for as long as I can remember. It’s hilarious, especially at the end (“Bob’s your uncle!!”) and Alistair Sim is perfect. WHY THEY WOULD REMAKE IT WITH JIM CARREY IS BEYOND ME.

Christmas Day: Die Hard

Some may argue, the ultimate Christmas movie. Needless to say, I watch this one with my Dad and love every second of it. C’mon, Severus Snape as a crazy German mofo, Bruce Willis swearing at every possible opportunity, a hilarious computer nerd (essential to any good heist film), lots of random Christmas references, Argyle, and of course Twinkies. Best. Time. Ever.

So that’s all I got for you. I should probably get back to studying. I feel more motivated now, I guess? Definitely going to have more time on my hands in the coming days, maybe I’ll post some Christmas baking recipes and pictures, or talk about the books I’m finally getting to read! SO many amazing opportunities coming up! Better get to work I guess. :)

xoxo, S.

Sweet Darlin’

“It’s a little bit funny, this feeling inside.”

-Elton John

Well Elton you said it. I am experiencing quite a strange feeling. It’s not quite fear, not quite excitement. I’m not outwardly anxious, happy or afraid. Internally I am experiencing mild anxiety or stress, but I’m not overcome with it. Maybe that’s because if I thought about it too much I would lose it completely. There are some indications, hints at my current insanity. For example, my absent mindedness. In the past week I have left the stove on all morning, left the oven on all night, ordered a homeburger instead of a natureburger, lost approximately seven things and counting, found one of them, and then lost the list of things I’d lost. Fortunately I found that.

People say this is from the underlying stress of experiencing a grand transition.

I certainly hope so.

Otherwise, I appear to the untrained eye to be okay. I was speaking with my dad yesterday and realized that the thing I’m having the most trouble with is the fact that I don’t really know very much about where I’m going and therefore do not have much control over my situation. And that’s hard for me. Because while I don’t need to control other people’s behaviour, it’s difficult for me to experience a change over which I hold no control. It was bothering me a lot that this situation was completely unknown to me: don’t know my room, where my classes are, don’t have the meal plan figured out, yadda yadda yadda. It’s not so much anxiety over making friends, etc, it’s knowing that I have no control over who I’ll meet. I have no idea what is going to happen, and that is the scariest part by far.

Also on my mind is this idea of shifting relationships. In a few short days I am going to be far away from my friends and family, in a different city, province and headspace. My greatest fear of all is that I’ll return a stranger to my family and lose contact with my friends.

Not to mention school itself! I have spent so much time worrying about everything else that I haven’t given much thought to the workload itself, the hours spent studying, the reading, the labs, the stress. I just have to remember to keep my head down and work hard I guess.

I have been getting so many great words of advice from the wise people around me: parents, friends, sisters, colleagues. I am leaving so soon that I am at the point of inevitability. It is happening in three days and there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it.

Which is fairly terrifying in its own right.